Hateful post

I hate myself.

I am changed! I am cold. I don't feel. I  hurt. I hate people. I hate people who hurt me! I hate people for whom I have to put up my defences. 

I hate everything that's happened to me in the last two years. I hate the month of October. October of 2013. 

I can't put it in words. I don't have anything to say. I am so angered by my own inability to express myself. I loathe myself at my own stupidity. 

Can I die and be born new again. 

Arghhhhh hate you.

I hate everything. 

Don't believe whatever I wrote.

I am very happy with my life right now. I am content. I have a nice person to love and I have people who care for me. I have people who would die for me. But I don't want them to die for me. Ever. I am even pampered by my friends and then of course I have few guys who think I am

Absolutely gorgeous no matter what.

So why did it happen to me! Why why why