No, I don't want to play tennis or be labelled a champ. And neither do I want to be known, nor do I want to know anyone.
But I don't want to die either.
I don't want to die. I want to die a natural death. An accidental death. A freak accident! A murder even. Any kind of death. Because I am afraid someday I might kill myself. I don't want to die because I didn't have the will to live. And I am afraid.