This year I turned 21 and I know people my age are to be matured and ready to take all the responsibilities. But here I am writing this down with a childish heart and candid expression that I have not fully matured to be bestowed all that life has to offer. Given that I have always been a slow but a steady learner I am growing up at the same pace, same rate. The year 2012 however marks a transition phase as I feel myself more liable to be called a woman than a girl. But I am still a girl not a woman yet. This might take a few more years but I am a tiny bud that has yet to blossom. Often I know I have been an unpleasant person shunning all forms of "keep in touchs" and trying more to be in the real world with my remarks and 'bitching'. Confining myself in the reading room or the hospital wards and avoiding most of social interaction I have found knowledge but not fortitude. It has been my good fortune to have been blessed with pleasant pretty smile and an arsenal of skills that makes me almost impossible to forget, almost impossible for others not be curious about me. I am an enigma others find hard to decode.
This year my resolution is to be more courteous to people, not that I am not. What should my real resolution is to make time for those who matter.
I have so many friends. I wish I could spend time with everyone of them. The little details, jokes, pleasantries matter. They keep you happy.
Being twenty one I am still unaware of what I feel. When I laugh at a boy/mans jokes they take me to be of a coquettish disposition but they should know that I would laugh equally aloud in the presence of a female companion.
It is always about bettering oneself.
Of course my resolution doesn't mean I will TRY to be matured. That will come with time. What I have to better now is what I am today.
Happy new year dear readers.
May you have a great year ahead.
As of tonight I am hitting the dance floor with my friends. I love dancing. And oh what a feast my friends prepared for the new years eve!